things that give me anxiety
- being late
- things i said five minutes ago
- things i said five years ago
- people touching me
- being around a ton of people
- being yelled at
- wondering if people are talking about me
- every action i do
- and just about everything else
I went through a phase in life where I used to call people bulbasaur. I don’t know why. I still do sometimes.
Shaikh al-Islaam, Ibn Taymiyyah رحمه الله said:
“The reality of Tawheed is that we should worship Allaah Alone. So none should be called  upon except Him; none should be feared  except Him; none should be revered  except Him; none should be relied  upon…
Yesterday I had hijaama done for the first time. I had it done on my back, head and knee. I wasn’t nervous doing it because I know it’s a sunnah and therefore there is benefit in it but I didn’t want to go first. I watched my friend who has been before have it done first just so I knew what was about to happen. As expected with me it didn’t freak me out and I actually thought the blood coming out looked cool. I know I’m a weirdo.
Anyway I had it done and it was juat weird. The woman didn’t cut as deep with me because of the diabetes but loads still came out. The only place I really felt it was my head and that’s where most of the weird blood came from. I felt fine after doing it but felt a little light headed in the evening. In shaa Allah it will be of benefit to me. I do recommend everyone tries it at least once.
Shaikh Muhammad Nasir-ud-Deen al-Albaanee (rahimahullaah) said:
“Verily, the true Religion of Islaam separates, and that is because the Qur`an separates. It separates between truth and falsehood, and our da’wah separates between truth and falsehood. And due to that, our Da’wah – which is the da’wah of truth – separates between the person of truth and the person of falsehood. And that is what the Messenger of Allaah (salallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam) did when he came with his da’wah.”
If you don’t fear accountability for your actions or speech, professing that you only expressing your individuality, limiting morality, fading away sincerity mocking reasonability, cutting rationality , accepting hypocrisy, feeding ignorant intellectuality, humouring the upper/middle class…
Animal Odd Couples is one of the best programmes I have seen in ages. Awwww
So the first meeting was so awkward. It felt more like an interrogation than a general meeting. I don’t wish these kinds of meetings upon anyone. It was the longest hour of my life.
Today will be my first ever experience of rishtas. A family is coming to my house to discuss me. Yes me. How weird. I never thought this day would come. I don’t think anyone did. Yes I am 27 but I am the baby of the family and have always joked about this. I just keep saying this is awkward and cringing. My sisters sat me down and said I had to dress nicely, not wear my usual footwear, socks, hoodies, scarves and that worst of all I was not allowed to wear my glasses as they are ‘slightly comedic’. I have to wear a cardigan! I already feel oppressed lol. However, my sister did say “be yourself, you are a beautiful person and if they can’t appreciate that then sod ‘em” this made me very happy. I love my sisters, they are legends MashaAllah.
Today is going to be an interesting day.
So driving home listening to radio 4 at just before 1 and the presenter says “and this is the end of tonights programme.” Suddenly the national anthem starts to play. I was confused. I don’t know how this makes me feel.